well my friend finally got home and we are all relieved. She has  that come in and help with speech and mobility but we are her primary care givers. I don't regret her coming home but it is really an adventure taking care of a stroke victim. We do what we have to because that's just what my family does, we soldier on.

Had a busy day yesterday, getting the house ready for my friend (who had a stroke) to come home. The nursing home is doing a home assessment today. I spent practically all day yesterday moving things around and I can hardly move today, but I'm not done I still got a ton of stuff to do to get the ready for her a her special needs. I suppose as long as I keep at I'll get it finished eventually.

Haven't written for awhile. so here it goes. I seem to be in a never ending circle. everyday is the same. I don't go to sleep until almost daylight, then I sit and watch tv. until whenever I fall asleep. I do occasionally get up in the morning and on them days I get some things done. Even on those days I have to be careful not to over due it other wise my hands and feet hurt and I can't sleep. On the plus side, my that the stroke is doing fine, she might be home by christmas.

I'm having a hard time of it this week. My diabetes is all out of wack, my feet are driving me crazy, and my sciatica is also driving me crazy. I feel like I'm just fallen apart, every time I try to do something good for me I end up like this. I just keep plugging along.

Sorry I haven't posted in awhile but I been busy trying to figure some things out. For one thing I am ready to start a exercise program and I hope that by doing this I will be able to get my diabetes under control better than I have been. I plan on doing most of my exercising in the pool so I can keep the stress to my joints to a minimum . I have also been trying to increase my financial situation it's very near impossible to live on disability.That
s all for now, I'll put in my blog how my exercising is going .

I've trying to work on my vehicle and man oh man has my arthritis been hurting me bad. My diabetes on the other hand is or was doing pretty good. Anyway it took me about two weeks to get to the point   that I'm at now, at least  I can drive it now, but I'm still not done working on it. Although I have to wonder if all the pain is worth it.

It's been a tough couple of weeks trying to keep my diabetes in check. First, my excursion needed work done and I still haven't finished that, next my bathroom needs work done, the toilet needs fixed, the floor needs replaced and I hope that is the extent of work that needs done for now. On top of that there's the situation with  my friend that had the strokes. Shes coming along but there is still a lot of work to be done, so between going to see her, working on my excursion and working on my bathroom I feel extremely overwhelmed and the stress causes my blood sugar to go up and down like a yoyo.

It's been awhile since my last post, so here's what's going on with me. I have been going to the nursing home to see my friend and she seems to be improving a little bit every time I go. She has her good days and bad, but I like to think she has more good than bad. Recently I have been working on my excursion, the gas filler neck leaks and I have a bad spot in the exhaust. I work on it for a while then rest and after I get done working for the day I feel pretty good that I can still do some thing although they take me a lot longer than they used to and the next day or so I'm no good to do anything. I'll keep working on it, I'm making progress.

My wife and youngest daughter have upset me to no ends. The women I talk about that had a stroke wants desperately to come home and I'm for giving it a try but they only see the negative and only tell me all the things involved with her being home. I know whats involved because I spend time with her at the hospital and I've known her all my life. I feel I owe it to her to let her come home if she wants. The worst that can happen is it doesn't work out. Being the kind of person I am, if my friend wants to come home I will make it happen no matter what anyone else says. I owe that women a lot and it
s only right that I try.

I seem to be doing rather well with my diabetes, my numbers are looking better but still not were they should be. The situation with my friend that had a stroke is still a mess, she has good days and bad days. One day she seems to on be on a even keel and presumably able to understand and other days she off in left field.  I have a theory on that and it is on the days she is noncoherent they give her a sedative and that's why she acts the way she does. I think they give too strong of sedative or may they should consider giving her a different type or none at all, but I have to get conformation on that. I know one thing, I have not given up on her recuperating back to a condition where she can come home and I am going to do everything I can think of to make that happen.

I've put my concern for my diabetes on hold because yesterday I found out that my friend that had he art surgery also sometime after the surgery had two strokes. At this point I feel helpless because there is nothing I can do but show support and that is not the kind of person I am, when I see a problem I want fix it and this I can't.  I'm not going to ignore my diabetes I'm always going to be dealing with that but right now I'm just more concerned with my friend and her health. It feels like I'm losing my mind because there is all these thoughts going through my brain that I can't shut it off and that's effecting my sleep, the way I eat, the way I act and anything else that can be effected.

I have been doing rather well controlling my sugar, I have been trying to control my portions and eat things that don't effect my sugar. I went to visit my friend in the nursing home where she is for rehab. The problem is it does not seem to be going as fast as everyone wants. She can talk better, we can understand her but she rambles and I think she is stuck in the past and hasn't cot up to the present yet. The one thing I do totaling understand is she wants to go home and I want her to go home but right now she requires more care than we can give her at home. I feel really bad that I can't take her home yet and when she starts the I wanna go home stuff, because she doesn't exactly whats going on so the only thing me or anyone that visits her can do is walk away and that is one of the hardest thing to do but if you don't she just keeps at it and then she starts crying and I can't stand it so I leave so she will calm down.

I've been having a few good days lately my blood glucose has been down into mid one hundreds. I know that's still pretty high but any time I can get it down like that I'm doing good. I have a new reason for getting it under control, my daughter just had a baby, my first grandchild. So now I have to work extra hard but I'll get there.

My sleep has really been thrown off because of my  dogs and the fact that there is usually only me here during the because my wife is busy with my daughter and the new baby so while the wife helps helps my daughter I deal with the dogs and then at night we can only have one dog in the bedroom because they don't get along. Then after I get the big one settled down for the night, I go to bed and try to get some sleep. Then for the past tow mornings it's been four thirty in the morning they start barking at one another trough the door and I have to get up. It is really doing a number on me, my whole system is seriously thrown off.

I had a terrible night, My hands hurt all night so I have not been to sleep yet and the way things are going I may not get any sleep today. I have tried a number of things to help me sleep, I've tried sleepy time tea, arthritis cream, and pain meds. Nothing is working and it sucks because I'm sleepy.

I mowed the grass yesterday and oh boy do my legs and feet hurt today. When i was in the back mowing I stepped wrong and almost caused my knee to bend in a very weird way, I thought I was in real trouble for a minute becuase I was home alone. I decided to take it easy today to recuperate.

My friend that had surgery is doing well except she is having trouble with her cognitive activity, she seems confuse sometimes and she has trouble putting sentences together. We have been told it's probably effects of the anesthesia and the surgery, I sure hope  so because she wasn't like that before the surgery. It really puts a lot of stress on me because I want to help her and there really isn't anything I can but be patient.

I'm having an emotional time, because my daughter is very close to giving birth to my first grand child. I gotta tell you all this stress is having an affect on my blood glucose and it's making me crazy. In other news, I am getting ready for the mowing season, I got all the stuff I need for my lawn mower, my knee braces, and I can't wait, it's about the only exercise I get and I do like being outside working in the yard.

I had kind of a weird day yesterday. It starts with the fact that I was up all night because my family friend was going into the hospital for heart surgery and had to be there at six am.  So, since I can't sleep at night I just stayed up. I did make me some breakfast because I knew we was in for a long day and I never eat when I go to hospital because I don't the food in the cafeteria and I'm to stressed and concerned about whats going on to think about eating. My friend was in surgery for about seven hours and thank goodness everything went fine. When we got home I ate and when I checked my blood glucose it 198 which is not great but pretty good for me, so after I ate and knew everything was good and my friend was doing well I took a nap because I had been up for  about twenty seven hours. After all we had been through I still wasn't able to sleep because my feet hurt so I took a pain pill and then I was to sleep for a few hours. I checked on my friend and the nurse said it probably wasn't a good idea to come out the hospital because my fiend was restless when she woke up because of the respirator so they are keeping her sedated but she is doing fine. I suspect when she wakes up she's kinda scared and fights the respirator.

Another rainy day and I'm still trying to control my diabetes. I think the pain I feel because of my arthritis affects my blood glucose, although I'm not sure how that works but I have noticed that when I'm in a considerable  amount of pain, my blood glucose is higher. I would like hear any thoughts on that.

Had a stressful night, my daughter was having trouble and went to the E.R. thankfully she was just dehydrated. By the she she is pregnant, and it's close to her due date. Anyway I was up all night so my blood sugar is probably going to be out of wack for a while and I had to take my friend to the clinic today because she is having surgery on the twelfth and I'm worried about that because she is up there in age.

This doesn't have much to do about diabetes but I have to get this off my chest because stress is not good for me.  I go to the publisher clearing house website every day because I enjoy entering the sweepstakes and playing the games. The thing I upset about is in order to play the tournament games they want me to disable my ad blocker and I am not going to do that. I still get offer from companies that pay to advertise on their site so I don't think I should have to disable my ad blocker just to watch their little commercials.  I don't really care that much about those tournaments it's the principle and the more I play on the site the more it screws up. I like the sweepstakes and other things I do on the site but it is frustrating. Thanks for letting me vent.  

Well it's another day, and I'm still working to get my diabetes under control. I have been eating more fiber in the morning and for the past few days anyway way after I check my blood glucose,( I check before I eat) my blood reading is usually in the mid two hundreds and when I check my blood before lunch it is significantly lower. I don't know why maybe it's because the bars I eat are one hundred calories a bar maybe it's the fiber. I will just have to keep eating fiber in the morning and see what happens with other forms of fiber.

It's rainy dreary day but I'm making the best of it, I'm sitting here with a cup of tea and getting the day started whatever it may hold. I hope tomorrow is better because I have some errands to run.I recently started getting involved on google plus and one post I put on was that I have a ford excursion and would like to know if anybody else has one so we could discuss different things about them, like want we have done to them and what we want to do to them stuff like that.

I recently started using google plus and joined a few discussion groups,just another way to me busy and keep mind occupied. I'm still new at it so I haven't posted to much but as time goes by I'm sure I will.

I went to the store today, I decided to walk instead of ride. I have to admit, it felt good to walk around for awhile then my my knees start hurting and my feet start in, then I start sweating and the experience of just going to the store wasn't fun anymore and I had to cut my visit short.

Been having trouble controlling my blood sugar lately probably been the wrong stuff and eating at the wrong time of night. I am going to half to reevaluate the way I'm doing things.It sucks because just when I think I'm making progress it turns out I'm not. I keep track of my sugar in a log and when I look at it, I see that it goes up and down like a yoyo.

Things are going about the same, still sleep at night because of my feet and hands. I am thinking of get outside and puttering around as soon as the stays nice for more than a day. Until then I will just sit in the house and watch tv, and plan the things I want to do outside once I get can get out.

Having a good day and been having some decent nights while the weather stays warm. Gotta say though, it's been raining and the dampness gets me. right know I'm justing here browsing on the computer and sitting with my dog, we just got done with breakfast and (I never knew this) my dog likes buttermilk.  He's a good old dog, he keeps me company.

    

I went to see my foot doctor today, the good news is my feet really aren't get worse they seem to about the same. I still battle every day with the pain and trying to get my sugar under control. It seems that between the diabetes  and the arthritis I don't see a situation in which I can get better.

I am thinking of joining the Y.M.C.A. to help with my diabetes I figure since I have the silver sneakers program as part of my insurance I might as well use it. Hopefully I can get my wife interested in joining with me. As for the progression of my decease I still have trouble sleeping at night but maybe if I start exercising that will help.

I am still having trouble sleeping at night so I usually sleep during the day. The next time I go to the doctor I am going to tell him about my troubles and see what he suggest. If anyone has any suggestions I encourage you to share.

Another day battling with diabetes, I seem to be doing something wrong because my numbers are up. I just have to figure out what I'm doing to raise my numbers and correct it. Seems like just when I start getting my numbers getting low my numbers start going back up. Sometimes I think it's my sleep habits or the fact that I can't seem to stay on a regular eating schedule. Plus the fact that I have a hard time exercising because I have arthritis.

I have been having trouble sleeping at night, I think it is because I sleep better during the day so I can't go to sleep at night. It kind of sucks, it tends to screw up my whole day.

I am really not liking this cold, damp weather, it makes my arthritis really hurt. On the plus side my neuropathy isn't doing to bad. I still have trouble sleeping at night, can't seem to sleep until two or three in the morning. I wish I could get out and do things like I use to, I miss going bowling and walking the mall, shoveling snow, and doing yard work or working on my own vehicle. I guess that what happens when you abuse your body when young and invincible.

I had a bad  night, my feet and hands hurt so bad that I could not go to sleep until morning. My neuropathy was really bothering me as well as my arthritis.

I have had diabetes for about six years and have found that it is very difficult to deal with this decease because of my other physical limitations. In addition to diabetes I have arthritis no cartilage in my knees or feet which is where the arthritis affects me the most. Because of this it is very difficult for me to exercise so I have to try to regulate my diabetes through diet and that is very difficult for me.