I've put my concern for my diabetes on hold because yesterday I found out that my friend that had he art surgery also sometime after the surgery had two strokes. At this point I feel helpless because there is nothing I can do but show support and that is not the kind of person I am, when I see a problem I want fix it and this I can't.  I'm not going to ignore my diabetes I'm always going to be dealing with that but right now I'm just more concerned with my friend and her health. It feels like I'm losing my mind because there is all these thoughts going through my brain that I can't shut it off and that's effecting my sleep, the way I eat, the way I act and anything else that can be effected.