Sorry I haven't posted in awhile but I been busy trying to figure some things out. For one thing I am ready to start a exercise program and I hope that by doing this I will be able to get my diabetes under control better than I have been. I plan on doing most of my exercising in the pool so I can keep the stress to my joints to a minimum . I have also been trying to increase my financial situation it's very near impossible to live on disability.That
s all for now, I'll put in my blog how my exercising is going .

I've trying to work on my vehicle and man oh man has my arthritis been hurting me bad. My diabetes on the other hand is or was doing pretty good. Anyway it took me about two weeks to get to the point   that I'm at now, at least  I can drive it now, but I'm still not done working on it. Although I have to wonder if all the pain is worth it.

It's been a tough couple of weeks trying to keep my diabetes in check. First, my excursion needed work done and I still haven't finished that, next my bathroom needs work done, the toilet needs fixed, the floor needs replaced and I hope that is the extent of work that needs done for now. On top of that there's the situation with  my friend that had the strokes. Shes coming along but there is still a lot of work to be done, so between going to see her, working on my excursion and working on my bathroom I feel extremely overwhelmed and the stress causes my blood sugar to go up and down like a yoyo.

It's been awhile since my last post, so here's what's going on with me. I have been going to the nursing home to see my friend and she seems to be improving a little bit every time I go. She has her good days and bad, but I like to think she has more good than bad. Recently I have been working on my excursion, the gas filler neck leaks and I have a bad spot in the exhaust. I work on it for a while then rest and after I get done working for the day I feel pretty good that I can still do some thing although they take me a lot longer than they used to and the next day or so I'm no good to do anything. I'll keep working on it, I'm making progress.

My wife and youngest daughter have upset me to no ends. The women I talk about that had a stroke wants desperately to come home and I'm for giving it a try but they only see the negative and only tell me all the things involved with her being home. I know whats involved because I spend time with her at the hospital and I've known her all my life. I feel I owe it to her to let her come home if she wants. The worst that can happen is it doesn't work out. Being the kind of person I am, if my friend wants to come home I will make it happen no matter what anyone else says. I owe that women a lot and it
s only right that I try.

I seem to be doing rather well with my diabetes, my numbers are looking better but still not were they should be. The situation with my friend that had a stroke is still a mess, she has good days and bad days. One day she seems to on be on a even keel and presumably able to understand and other days she off in left field.  I have a theory on that and it is on the days she is noncoherent they give her a sedative and that's why she acts the way she does. I think they give too strong of sedative or may they should consider giving her a different type or none at all, but I have to get conformation on that. I know one thing, I have not given up on her recuperating back to a condition where she can come home and I am going to do everything I can think of to make that happen.

I've put my concern for my diabetes on hold because yesterday I found out that my friend that had he art surgery also sometime after the surgery had two strokes. At this point I feel helpless because there is nothing I can do but show support and that is not the kind of person I am, when I see a problem I want fix it and this I can't.  I'm not going to ignore my diabetes I'm always going to be dealing with that but right now I'm just more concerned with my friend and her health. It feels like I'm losing my mind because there is all these thoughts going through my brain that I can't shut it off and that's effecting my sleep, the way I eat, the way I act and anything else that can be effected.