I seem to be doing rather well with my diabetes, my numbers are looking better but still not were they should be. The situation with my friend that had a stroke is still a mess, she has good days and bad days. One day she seems to on be on a even keel and presumably able to understand and other days she off in left field.  I have a theory on that and it is on the days she is noncoherent they give her a sedative and that's why she acts the way she does. I think they give too strong of sedative or may they should consider giving her a different type or none at all, but I have to get conformation on that. I know one thing, I have not given up on her recuperating back to a condition where she can come home and I am going to do everything I can think of to make that happen.

I've put my concern for my diabetes on hold because yesterday I found out that my friend that had he art surgery also sometime after the surgery had two strokes. At this point I feel helpless because there is nothing I can do but show support and that is not the kind of person I am, when I see a problem I want fix it and this I can't.  I'm not going to ignore my diabetes I'm always going to be dealing with that but right now I'm just more concerned with my friend and her health. It feels like I'm losing my mind because there is all these thoughts going through my brain that I can't shut it off and that's effecting my sleep, the way I eat, the way I act and anything else that can be effected.

I have been doing rather well controlling my sugar, I have been trying to control my portions and eat things that don't effect my sugar. I went to visit my friend in the nursing home where she is for rehab. The problem is it does not seem to be going as fast as everyone wants. She can talk better, we can understand her but she rambles and I think she is stuck in the past and hasn't cot up to the present yet. The one thing I do totaling understand is she wants to go home and I want her to go home but right now she requires more care than we can give her at home. I feel really bad that I can't take her home yet and when she starts the I wanna go home stuff, because she doesn't exactly whats going on so the only thing me or anyone that visits her can do is walk away and that is one of the hardest thing to do but if you don't she just keeps at it and then she starts crying and I can't stand it so I leave so she will calm down.

I've been having a few good days lately my blood glucose has been down into mid one hundreds. I know that's still pretty high but any time I can get it down like that I'm doing good. I have a new reason for getting it under control, my daughter just had a baby, my first grandchild. So now I have to work extra hard but I'll get there.

My sleep has really been thrown off because of my  dogs and the fact that there is usually only me here during the because my wife is busy with my daughter and the new baby so while the wife helps helps my daughter I deal with the dogs and then at night we can only have one dog in the bedroom because they don't get along. Then after I get the big one settled down for the night, I go to bed and try to get some sleep. Then for the past tow mornings it's been four thirty in the morning they start barking at one another trough the door and I have to get up. It is really doing a number on me, my whole system is seriously thrown off.

I had a terrible night, My hands hurt all night so I have not been to sleep yet and the way things are going I may not get any sleep today. I have tried a number of things to help me sleep, I've tried sleepy time tea, arthritis cream, and pain meds. Nothing is working and it sucks because I'm sleepy.